Looking forward to the end...

[runiclaw]

it has been a long while since i have posted. not much has been going on. I had a great visit with my friend Leah from San fran area. wish had more time to do fun things with her here. work is  annoying but always is. most of my office is now looking for work else where. i am coming up to 1 year in a few weeks and am fairly sure will not be here in another year. will see where it goes. a man i knew and respected from a long time back died this week. he was found in him home after being missing a week. to be honest this scares the hell out of me. has always been a fear of mine to die alone. i do not fear death, but just do not want to pass alone, yes i am odd. on the tail end of that i got word my mother had been looking for me. on the Hopes i could re connect with my sister i called her to see how she was doing. nothing ever changes for them, she moved to FL and are happy there. got my sisters # and she is still in Dallas. but after a call to her it seem she no longer wants anything to do with me. her husband called me and told me in no uncertain terms i am never to contact her again. seems she still feels i abandoned them when i moved out. she was the last reason i had to want anything to do with that side of my family. to be honest i am hurt/shocked/numb. Time moves on. with the coming of the New year. i guess it is time for me to start cutting again. there are a lot of things from my past i have held on in a desperate Hope that may haps one day i could get Something back of what once was. there are a few people on here and myspace who are Friends only because of that. i am going to start cutting these away. if you get cut and still feel we are friends call me or message me and i will know that it was not just my own frail Hopes and there is a friendship there.
on a better note. there are a lot of rocky shows coming up this week and next that are going to be a blast. if you missed the Alice show 2 weeks ago you missed a Lot of Fun stuff.  come see us and cheer us on.

Comments

[valosonthor.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear things aren't going smoothly. It's a bit late notice, but if you're interested, Cheshire, myself, and others are camping out at TRF this weekend, and you are more than welcome to join us. I know we'd love to have you, and the distraction might do you good. If you want any info, you have my number (and if you don't, let me know, I still have yours).

If you can't do ren fest this weekend, what do you say to grabbing some beers next weekend? It would be good to catch up with you.

[runiclaw.livejournal.com]

have alot going on this weekend with the rocky crew but next week might be a good idea,

[mistletoeelf.livejournal.com]

grr, I really find it frustrating when someone who is "supposed" to be family, cuts the threads, sorry for your pain.

on another note, you are strong, and will find the right reasons for not letting it totally get you down.

07 had been way more suck than good around here, and hoping for better times ahead for us and for you!

[teakitten.livejournal.com]

Mew, sorry for being always quiet..Work and a large ocean keeps me from visiting... and OH MY GOD, you and my husband were the same costume this year, Mad Hatter, but by far yours was creepy... with all those swirls and the animal grin... pure evil... so proud. ;->

good new and bad.
We are coming back to the states at the end of March. bad news is that I still don't know where we are gonna end up. We are hoping Carson in Colorado, but selected for State of Washington and then maybe Virgina. Bryce said it was a chance we put in for Alaska, but that was like a .01 chance... mew. In a matter of words... see ya soon ;->

[runiclaw.livejournal.com]

lass you get ANY where on this side the pond will come see you when you get in. have missed you greatly sis.